Monday, July 8, 2013 3:40 AMAm feeling horribly insecure and scared about going to uni in a few weeks.
Im afaid of not having any friends ._. Because people always say that it's hard to make friends when you don't go for camps and such. Of course that isn't always the case,but for a shy/quiet/introverted/not all that friendly person like me,it might turn out to be so, perhaps?
I really dread that scenario.

I haven't signed up for any camps due to work,and the faculty one starts on 9th July so too late :/ I guess it's my fault for not really paying attention to these things, but then work kind of came first in the previous few weeks D:

There are still a few camps available for me to sign up, mainly the interest group camps,but Im not all that interested in those,honestly.
And hall camps are still open of course,since the allocation results aren't out yet, I probably will go for that if I eventually decide to stay in hall.
Speaking of hall, I took the plunge and selected the assign random roommate option in the application form, since I don't know many friends going to NTU in the first place,and the ones that are are all rooming with someone else/not staying in hall.

So yeah Im feeling pretty very apprehensive at the moment D:
Also,Im still wondering if the school informs you of your new roommate's identity when they release the allocation results,especially in a case like mine?


Not too sure of what the near future holds for me,but I really hope everything turns out more or less alright. Fate works in funny ways,after all, and this holds especially true when it comes to the job I just ended last week.

It took me quite a while to find the job, partly because I was picky, and partly cause I think my agent ain't very good(sorry but I really think that's true). The 2 interviews that I went for didn't yield any results, and I came to work for my company because they didn't require any interviews and just accepted me based on my (measly, practically non-existent) resume.

The first time I stepped into the warehouse(yes,warehouse), I would never have imagined myself to be able to stay for so long. And I never imagined I would like the people there so much,and miss them even more.

Work did begin with a very rocky start, especially with transportation issues and getting lost in industrial Jurong,but things did work out after the first week or so ^^ I never dreaded going to work any day, unlike my prevous 6 weeks stint in a well-known coffee chain as a barista, where I dreaded heading off to work nearly all the time,mainly due to a certain manager that really didn't like me much(and the feeling was mutual).

I really miss my colleagues at the warehouse now(though I just ended work last Friday), and while not having to wave up at the crack of dawn on weekdays(enabling me to stay up to ridiculous hours like these) is great, I don't actually feel very happy about leaving work at all. I honestly don't really know why I harbour such strong feelings for these people, given the age gap and difference in backgrounds/education level(I feel like Im sounding snobbish here...), but I really like them a lot. Im not sure if they feel the same way and miss me just as much as I do them, but I hope that they do! ;) They're all really good people, and 他们对我这个小妹真的很好, so in a way Im grateful that the 2 previous interviews I went for didn't accept me, or I would never have met my colleagues at the warehouse. It makes me sad that I won't be seeing them pretty much ever again, or at best very,very rarely.

But then, as I said, Fate works in funny ways,doesn't it? May everything turn out well~